Ugh, i'm feeling so irritable and cranky now.. (Probably due to lack of sleep, horrible unsupporting family, and over-musings as to whether my crush still likes me or not ) Anyway, thank God i'll be going to KL for the Star education fair this weekend, and staying at my sis's house. I think if i have to stay in Kuantan for the rest of my life, i'll end up in Rumah Bahagia! (or Tanjung Rambutan, whichever is further from this hell ! ) To add to the general feeling of gloom, i now know what my family would think about me if i were to pursue my ambition. ( Nope, they're not gonna congratulate me..Quite the opposite, in fact..)  Today, i almost missed a huge chance to try something that means a lot to me, something i've wanted to do ever since i was.. 'bout fourteen? Luckily i managed to persuade my dad, so now i'm waiting to see if i'll be chosen!

      One of my best friends pierced her navel today. It was quite a terrible experience, for me..!  ('cause i practically collapse at the sight of blood) I couldn't resist peeking a lil when i heard the exclamations of how much blood was oozing out.. ( though i immediately regretted doing that, since there were quite a lot of bloody tissues on the table already.. ) Hehe, anyway, after she'd pierced it, i was the one who had to sit down and rest for a while, not her! She took it very well i supppose, since there was a considerable amount of blood when the needle went in.. (eew..) Oh well, at least i've made another 2006 Resolution to add to my list.. And the resolution is.... :

      ---»  Never pierce anywhere other than my ears.

      Oh look, its midnight already.. My ex was teaching me Mandarin the whole night. Its feels kinda weird, us still being such good friends and all that..He may even be studying at the university as me this coming May! Its really ironic though, 'cause just when we broke up, things started getting much better for us. For example, my parents finally allowed me to go out at night, and my dad even asked me why my ex wasn't coming along at first! ('cause he usually fetches me around.. ) Not only that, we now get along much better as friends than when we were together!

      As for my "eat less" diet, i guess its going on quite well so far..At least, i think it is.. Till today, i've skipped breakfast almost everyday, erm, failed to restrain myself from supper last night, but i shall try harder this time! Hmm, talking bout food.. I'm feeling kinda hungry right now, shall go make maggi mee.. ( the diet is temporarily postponed ) Hehe, night!

          I can't believe it..! Things are finally working out at last.. (for today anyway) Hehe, i shall not elaborate on it yet, as the results are not final. Lets just say, my whole life depends on what happens tomorrow at 2pm..

         Anyway, i've just realized that its already the 4th of Jan 2006, and i haven't even planned any New Years Resolutions yet! Ahem, i now present you with my 2006 Resolutions..Enjoy!

         ---»  Complete last year's resolutions...!

         ---»  Lose some more weight ( that camp already took care of 3kgs.. )

         ---»  Learn  Mandarin ( i swear i totally suck at my native language )

         ---»  Celebrate my birthday with the one that matters most to me

         ---»  Start adjusting to a single ( i.e, lonely ) life.. 

         ---»  Skip one major meal a day ( either breakfast, lunch or dinner )

         ---»  Keep in touch with the nuts who've gone to college.

               ( i'm gonna miss u guys so much..!!  )

        ---»  Not leave my coursework till the last minute (like what i did for SPM )

        ---»  Get a part-time job (living in KL's like throwing $$ away everyday!)

        ---»  Um, be a better person?

        ---»  Have more cirit-birit! ( Diarrhea )

        ---»  Learn to eat Indian food.. ( Thus, get more diarrhea..!  )

      Okay, now that i've got that out of the way, allow me to sigh in relief 'cause my article on the camp is done, and sent to be printed already! Thank goodness i managed to squeeze enough outta my head to write a decent page-long article on it! Hehe, the fact that i managed to even type a single sentence at the eleventh hour (more like 3.30 a.m) on the nite before the deadline is a miracle itself..! (Of course, i did not include the awful stuff like the food there.. ) Oh no, gotta go, i've just discovered that my break up with my ex wasn't as smoothly done as i thought.. Now i have to settle it with him, all over again.. (Apparently, we're still together..)

Oh no, i feel a headache coming along.. Bye..!

   Arghh, my article on a camp i attended recently is due tomorrow!! And as usual, (being me) one can just imagine how much i've written bout it so far.. ( Answer: nothing, not a single word.. ) How i wish the article would just write itself so i needn't have to crack my head over it..! I guess some would say im a procastinator, but i prefer to call it "waiting for inspiration to strike!"  Unfortunately for me, inspiration still has not clubbed me over the head yet, so i shall just complete this blog while waiting.. Actually, its not really hard to describe what the camp was all bout, the bigger problem would be making it sound interesting (and fun), since i completely hated some of the activities there.. Hmm, to lie or not to lie? (oh, who cares, screw the bloody article.. )

   Lets see, i'm now a perfect mixture of confusion, happiness, cynicalism (is there such a word??) and blurness (not enough sleep lately).. Oh, wait, gotta write this 1st. I'm chatting with my friends on MSN, and many of them are leaving for college, university and some already left. It feels so weird, saying goodbye to all those nuts that i've known so well here in Kuantan..But then again, i shall soon be leaving too, probably after my results are out, and i'll probably make new friends wherever i'm headed to next..Somehow, it won't really be the same without them anymore..(*Sigh) Too depressed to write anymore, shall go eat my dinner now, Bye!

             HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006!!!!

   Wow, i'm starting my first ever blog on a new yearz day! Just like that, another is has flown by, and soon i'll be 18.. I wonder what i've learned all throughout 2005? Umm, before that, i'd beta note down what i've learnt this year.. (2006). Namely, what i learned less than 12 hrs ago! (*Please do not try this formulae,resultz may vary with each individual) :

 Vodka + Nasi Minyak + Burger =  Visit Toilet 

   Hehe, what can i say? It was my first time drinking it..  As a result, i'm now completely nauseous, and i've no appetite for neither lunch, tea-time, dinner nor supper! Oh well, i suppose there's a blessing in disguise behind all this..At least i can lose all da fat i gained last night by pigging out on that RM 5.90 nasi minyak..  Oh no, i just remembered.. Gotta go "yamcha" later at 2pm with some friends at Kemaman Kopitiam! ..*faintz*... (This'll be the 1st time i won't order anythin at a yamcha session..) All i wanna do now is curl up in bed and zzzzz.... (after taking some med for my stomach, that is) How on earth can one expect a happy year ahead when one starts the 1st day of new year feeling like puking?? (or burping continuously, which is even worse.. )

   Ahem, anyway, i can't really complain because last night marked a significant event in my life. (No, i did not meet any "lengchai".. :p) What i mean is, my parents finally allowed me to celebrate new year's eve outside, with my friends! It was a lil weird at 1st, cuz i didn't really know all da people very well. But after a while, the vodka must've loosened all our tongues,(not literally!) and we all made as much noise as we could.. (Relax Cafe gave out party boxes) Ugh, i think i'm gonna puke.. and i only have half an hour left to zzz.. Ohh, the horror of it all..! i'm never gonna over-eat ever again..! But this is M'sia after all.. Arggh, gotta go puke, may continue the story of my life later.. 

bYe!