Went for a steam-boat party just now.. It was held in honour of my friend's 18th birthday, as well as to bid farewell to two others, who would be leaving to Ipoh for further studies this Friday..And so, i start my blog for today in a depressed mood.. (again) Funny isn't it, how life never seems to go the way you want it to? ( in the 1st place, my life rarely seems to go anywhere, much less the way i want it to!  ) Throughout these few weeks, i've learnt that no matter how hard fate tries to match you with someone, chances are nothing's probably gonna happen if you don't take the initiative yourself to make it happen! ( that i learned at a recent camp.. ) Anyway, today marks Day 2 in my attempts to forget this guy? It's not my ex, its someone i didn't really know very well.. Heck, it was someone i didn't know at all..! Until i met him somewhere, that is.. (can't say where, sorry!) Thing is, how much can you trust someone you hardly know at all? I doubt if a week is enough, right? But then again, what about arranged marriages, where the bride and groom don't even meet till the wedding itself?? Anyway, back to this guy.. He seems sincere enough, but i don't seem to know what's on his mind ( the rare calls due to the long distance may be part of the reason.. ) Besides, his working hours are terrifying, and he disappointed me big time by working late ( or so he claimed ) on one of my rare visits to KL. And so, after much thought, (and with the help of this book i'm currently reading), i've realized that its pointless to allow my happiness to be dependant on some guy who's essentially not someone i trust..(Is he a sweet talker? Hell, yes! ) Guess i'll soon learn to distinguish the creeps from the nice guys..   This is what i've been doing to distract myself during the hardest part of my journey to move on..

Yesterday (Day 1)

Thoughts throughout the day:

12.30 p.m : (Just woke up..) Any messages from him? Oh wait, this is my first day of                     recovery.. Oops!  

1.30 p.m : Damn it, don't they ever fix the bloody church organ?? ( i was in church,                 practicing my songs for Mass on the 22nd Jan..This would be my 1st time                 playing after quitting 2 years ago!! ) Wonder if he'll even know that im                 playing the organ..

3.30 p.m : Yummy, these cookies are delicious!! ( helped mom to bake some cookies;  As the old saying goes,  Good on the lips, fat on the  hips..!  )

Night :  My, my.. What a nice clean bag i actually have..! ( Finally got around to washing my pink Tropicana bag, goodness knows it's needed a bath since i spilled oyster sauce on it last year, followed by some mud, chilli sauce, and er..lets just say that the bag has a really klutzy owner..   )

  And so, the first day passed.. Enters the second day, i baked some more cookies, rearranged my room, unpacked, reorganized my photo albums ( there were more than 50 albums..!! ), and basically occupied myself with stuff to do.. Guess it worked, 'cause i don't feel like replying his messages anymore.. Though its a pity he's such a workaholic and so irresponsible in other aspects, as i could've really fallen for this guy.. Anyway, itz almost 3 in the morning now, shall continue tomorrow.. Night..!