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Me? A humble insomniac who'll turn 18 this coming February the 23rd.. ( * gifts in the form of cash are also accepted.. :p) I don't know what i wanna do with my life, but i do hope to touch the lives of others in some way or another.. Love? At the moment, shattered illusions are all i have, but who knows what the future will bring?


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Tuesday, January 31, 2006
3rd Day of Chinese New Year..

..Announcement..?

The author of this blog shall throw up if anyone offers her more food, cookies, chocolates, or everything else edible..cry 

         Yup, i've once again committed 2 of the 7 DEADLY SINS.. That would be..GLUTTONY and SLOTH.. Tongue  ( *sigh* ) It can't be helped you know, what with such delicacies being offered at every house we visit, and gross lack of self-control on my part..Hurmph 

         Now i shall suffer the consequences of gluttony, as i'm currently having indigestion, and feeling very bloated. ( in other words: constipated ) As for the sin of sloth-ing, ( is there even such a word?? ) we'll all know soon enough, since my scream when i weigh myself next week will be enough to make the dead come running after me.. ( at the moment, i've hidden my sister's weighing machine beneath a broken table.) Oh well, what would Chinese New Year be without the totally stoned looks of people ( okay, just me then.. Tongue ) who've eaten too much and can't be bothered getting up from the couch?

*   Skip the next paragraph if you're feeling particularly happy (or drunk ) and have no wish to read about depressing family histories.. ( or lack of it, in my case )

         Celebrations aside, i'm actually very stressed out now.. ( besides being bloated, that is.. Tongue) Reason why? My family is visiting an extremely important aunt tomorrow morning. She's important cause she is the only link i have to my real family. ( She was the one who brought me to my current family ) Since i'm turning 18 soon, i feel that its finally time to know what my real parents look like, how many brothers, sisters, cousins, aunts, and uncles that i have, my medical history, and such stuff.. ( to those who've been gifted with slightly er..lagging..wits, let me simplify that : i'm adopted )

         How does one even begin to ask about her real, but unknown family? What would they look like?? I was only about 2 days' old when i was given to my current family, and we had no contact with them ever since.. There were some who claimed to understand how i feel about the whole thing. Truth is, i'm still very confused myself, so how would you know what i go through?

         Imagine then, knowing you were adopted ever since you were young, but nothing else bout your real family? Wondering if every stranger you meet could actually be related to you? Or worse, what about some weird genetic disease that you may be ignorant about, that can affect you in future? Only someone who has had such questions running through her head almost her entire life will understand what its really like to be me. As for tomorrow, i shall just have to wait and see, i guess.. Bye!

P/S : Another reason why i wanna know how my real family members look like would be to avoid marrying my own brother in future..! Surprise Now that would be a tale worth telling..Tongue



Currently listening to:
Unwritten
By Natasha Bedingfield



Posted at 02:15 am by Christine

 

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